Taking a break.. t get myself back again..

It has been a while since my last blog... There are so many things happened like H1N1 and Michael Jackson sudden pass away..
Me and my boss already in talking terms, only on work matters but we don't chat much like before..

I'm taking a break from blogging.. to get my career back on track again... (Still sniffing out for ship to jump)...

Feeling very "loser"...

I'm feeling very low.. Just don't know why.. After working so hard all these while.. and i still unable to save much $$.. me in my late 30ties.. I was wondering what have i been doing all these years.. or was it the living standard is getting even higher..? Or is it i'm too comfortable in the comfort zone (Job)... Maybe i should get a life..

Trip to Bottle Tree Park

On 6 Jun09, after work i went to Bottle Tree Park at Yishun (near Khatib MRT). This place is like a country side.. where families can have fun.. There are so many activities.. Long Kang Fishing, Prawn Fishing, Pond Fishing, Couple Swan Paddling, Pool Table, Table Soccer, Vegetable Farm, Paintball... etc... There is a seafood restaurant and a beer garden facing the main pond..

My daughter was so happy fishing for Long Kang (stream in Malay) fishes. For S$10, you will get a small fish tank & Net (all can be brought home). In the man-made pond there are Red Guppy, Ribbons, Swordtail, Pacu, Goldfish, Molly... and yesterday we are surprise to catch many baby Koi fishes... I was feel very sad for these fishes.. They have been spending their life running for their life while happy children stomping the pond trying to catch them.. I vow to bring them home and raise them well..

Since my daughter has been asking us to buy her a pet.. We let her keep these fishes as pet.. It is more meaningful as these fishes are caught by herself (with some help from my wife). It is an unforgettable experience for my child.. I have told my daughter to be responsible for the care and life of her pet fishes..

Then we head to Plaza Singapura to buy fish tank, filter, sands, ornaments etc... The shop keeper service was good.. He help us set up the whole aquarium...

Very low morale....

Still feeling very emo at work.. everyday.. Feel so sad.. Why am i like that...? I have tried to forgive her.. but each time i talk to her, she has been giving me the cold shoulder...

Or maybe that is all i could contribute to the company... Squeeze dry.. no more use liao... Maybe i was too loyal and got hurt so much.. is that the price for being too loyal... ??? Or is it time for me to move on and find another job with better prospect..

My boss now has been sitting in her room and still expecting sales from counter staffs.. and scold them for not getting sales.. End of the day, staffs cannot take t and resign.. then when the economy picks up.. new staffs are unable to cope because lack of product knowledge... so less sales...

At this point of time when the economy is bad.. The managers or seniors should be training the juniors on product knowledge.. and bosses should be going out to find business opportunities..So by the time the economy picks up.. Everyone is equips with skills and sales opportunities to do more sales...

This company is really lack of direction or maybe boss did not shared her direction with us...

Still disappointed with boss...

Well i still disappointed with my boss for her comment after so many days.. I'm a very forgiving person.. but somehow.. i could not shake her remarks out of my mind..

Maybe i'm too loyal to the company.. This is the company i have work the longest.. from Mar 2001 till now 2009.. WAH 8 years liao.. I started out as a Marketing Executive till my current position of Marketing Manager.. I have learn a lot during this 8 years.. Maybe that remarks of "Calculative" hurts my 8 years of commitment to this company..

For so many times i have been taking a step back to see what i have achieved in this company... Do i still have more to contribute or is there any more rooms to climb up to.. ? These have been bugging my mind everyday.. Sometimes i wanted to forgive my boss, but then .. i just could not do it...

I'm not being petty or what so ever you call it... I'm just very very hurt by my boss remarks... after i contribute so much to this company.. I have never been calculative with my boss before..

Disappointed with my boss's remarks..

On saturday 30 May09.. My boss came to work at 11.45am.. (we start work at 12pm).. Then she saw one of my colleague in one of the branch, light still not on (she just came in, and yet to switch on the lights). Then my boss ask my other colleague, why 12pm already, the lights still not on? (it is still 11.45am) then my other colleague reply that she just arrive..

Later my boss call everyone for a meeting and scold all for not switching the lights on when we came into the office.. She expected us to switch on all the lights when we step into the office. I told her that we do switch on the lights even before 12pm.. Then she keep arguing with me that we only switch on the lights at 12pm sharp.... OOh damn it.. which eyes of her saw that we never switch on the lights.. Then she said why we all so calculative.. and she even says we manager instruct the counter staffs to only switch on the lights at 12pm.. she even tell the junior not to listen to the managers..

Damn it .. FUCK.. I really got really really angry with her.. HOW could she says that we are calculative...?? We come to work usually 15mins to 20 mins before 12pm.. and we will switch on the computers, scan for virus, clean the phone and switch on the lights.. Now who is calculative??? She should be glad that we come to work earily to get everything prepare before 12pm... so that when customers step in at 12pm we are all ready to serve....

I was so angry that i never speak to her for a few days (except for work matters)...

Ouch!... I knock my head....

OOOuchhh...!! This morning i knock my head against the Bench Press Machine at the gym.. It was painful.. i keep rubbing it hard so as not to get and blood clog.. (Some say blood clog might cause brain turmoil)...

This knock wakes up my idea.. Hahaha... After that i don't feel so sleepy le.. hahaha... What a way to begin my morning with....